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<h3><strong>Microbiome Research Will Change Our Approach</strong></h3>
<p>The research surrounding the microbiome is absolutely fascinating stuff. Could it help us one day cure or predict disease? Could it help us better treat celiac disease, Lyme Disease, cancer, even diabetes? It will most certainly change the way we approach our health, food, and environment.</p>
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<p>Microbiomes are the communities of microorganisms that live on or in  people, plants, soil, oceans, lakes, rocks, and the atmosphere. Recent  discoveries have generated a new view of the biological world, one that  recognizes that plants and animals are actually meta-organisms  containing one or many microbial species. Inanimate surfaces, from rocks  to keyboards, are likewise swarming with microbial life.</p>
<p>~National Microbiome Initiative</p>
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<p><br />We <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2014/5/1/dr-fasano-on-new-gut-autoimmune-research-autism-clearing-up.html">first </a><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2014/5/1/dr-fasano-on-new-gut-autoimmune-research-autism-clearing-up.html" target="_blank">discussed the microbiome </a></strong>on this blog <strong><span>with Dr. Alessio Fasano, MD</span></strong>, Chief of Pediatric Gastroenterology and Nutrition at Massachusetts  General Hospital, and is the Director of the Center for Celiac Research. His <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2014/4/22/new-study-needs-participants-to-help-researchers-predict-the.html" target="_blank">ground breaking research</a></strong> had expanded into the microbiome, including studies on the microbiome in the gut and how that protects us from disease; as well as the gut&rsquo;s relationship to the brain.</p>
<p>A recent article from NPR.org takes us a little further into the laboratory. Scientists  are actually using food like sourdough as the "lab rats" in their experiments. Rob Dunn, a biologist out of North Carolina University, is leading an international team on the <strong><a href="http://robdunnlab.com/projects/sourdough/" target="_blank">Sourdough Project</a></strong>. These researchers are using sour dough bread starters from home cooks all over the world. It is a citizen-science initiative," according to the NPR article. This is the ultimate collaboration - different disciplines, labs, world-wide, and with scientists and normal folks like you and me. We all affect each other. Even down to the little bugs that live in, on and around us. Why not work together?</p>
<p>Why sourdough, you ask? It is a fermented food, which means that some of the good bacteria that we need to digest and live are a part of their recipe. Sourdough and kimchi only have a few strains of good bacteria, which  make them easier to study. Cheese rinds are more complex and their  microbiome is actually similar to the one on your skin. Scientists can continually  apply what they have learned from a simpler system (like sourdough), to more and more complex microbial  systems, like cheese rinds, our skin, our gut, and our soil. How cool is that?</p>
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<p>In recent years, scientists have lea<span class="text_exposed_show">rned  that microbiomes have an outsize influence on nearly every aspect of  the world, including health, agriculture and the environment. Imbalances  in our gut microbiomes, for example, have been linked to a laundry list  of health issues, including obesity, colon cancer and autism. Last  year, then-President Barack Obama launched the National Microbiome  Initiative, a half-billion-dollar plan to study the microbiome.<br /><br /><strong><a href="http://www.npr.org/sections/thesalt/2017/07/17/536485684/more-than-bread-sourdough-as-a-window-into-the-microbiome?utm_source=facebook.com&amp;utm_medium=social&amp;utm_campaign=npr&amp;utm_term=nprnews&amp;utm_content=20170717" target="_blank">~NPR.org, July 17, 2017, More than Bread: Sourdough As a Window Into the Microbiome<br />Reporter, Marcus Woo</a></strong><br /></span></p>
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<h3>LEARN MORE COOL STUFF ABOUT THIS:</h3>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.npr.org/sections/thesalt/2017/07/17/536485684/more-than-bread-sourdough-as-a-window-into-the-microbiome?utm_source=facebook.com&amp;utm_medium=social&amp;utm_campaign=npr&amp;utm_term=nprnews&amp;utm_content=20170717" target="_blank">More than Bread: Sourdough As a Window Into the Microbiome (NPR)</a></strong></p>
<p><strong><a href="https://obamawhitehouse.archives.gov/blog/2016/05/13/announcing-national-microbiome-initiative" target="_blank">National Microbiome Initiative</a></strong></p>
<p><strong><a href="http://robdunnlab.com/projects/sourdough/" target="_blank">The Sourdough Project</a></strong></p>
<p><a href="http://newscenter.lbl.gov/2016/05/13/national-microbiome-initiative/" target="_blank"><strong>Berkley Lab Participates in National Microbiome Initiative</strong></a></p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2014/5/1/dr-fasano-on-new-gut-autoimmune-research-autism-clearing-up.html" target="_blank">Dr. Fasano on New Gut &amp; Autoimmune Research, Autism, &amp; Clearing Up the Gluten Confusion with His New&nbsp;Book</a></strong></p>
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</div>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35946070.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Don't Quit.</title><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>The Love Bite Diaries</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 23 Jul 2017 01:04:10 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2017/7/22/dont-quit.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35944745</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/love-bite-diaries/"><img style="width: 500px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/IfIQuitNow.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1500772017529" alt="" /></a></span></span></p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35944745.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Ronald Stram, MD on Lyme as a Public Heatlh Crisis, How Physicians Need to Adapt, and the Trouble with Testing</title><category>Doctor Visits</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>MD</category><category>Ronald Stram</category><category>Stram Center for Integrative Medicine</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 21 Aug 2016 19:35:19 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/8/21/ronald-stram-md-on-lyme-as-a-public-heatlh-crisis-how-physic.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35757231</guid><description><![CDATA[<h3><iframe width="560" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/2yjlKCXYgqM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></h3>
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<p>Dear Friends,</p>
<p>This is my current specialist who is treating me for complex Lyme,  Dr. Ronald Stram. He is a compassionate, smart man who is urging all  doctor's to become educated as "not just literate, but actively seeking  physicians" - and to make it part of their diagnostic differential. In  other words, when someone comes in with bizarre symptoms, don't just  ignore it, or work with standard tests. Learn about how this infection  behaves, how the 100+ (in some countries 300+) possible co-in<span class="text_exposed_show">fections  behave and how the symptoms present outside of the tests, AND use other  blood work - such as how the immune system is functioning. There are  specific indicators in the immune system that can be tested to see if it  is suppressed - and how.<br /></span></p>
<h3>Favorite Quotes from Dr. Stram:</h3>
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<p>"40% of Lyme patients end up with long term health problems. Catching it earlier brings those numbers way, way down."</p>
<p>"Lyme Disease Tests are 50% accurate. What scientist would accept a test like that?"</p>
<p>"&ldquo;The best practice of medicine involves continual feedback from  patients, research, labs, and analysis resulting in appropriate action.&rdquo;</p>
<p>&ldquo;It can leave you feeling hopeless. That&rsquo;s when you have your mother or  your father or your sister or your brother saying, &lsquo;C&rsquo;mon, you can take  this pill.&rsquo;&rdquo;</p>
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<p>... or your wonderful friends or adopted family of loving, supportive co-horts.</p>
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<p>With Delicious Wishes,</p>
<p>Elisabeth</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35757231.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Where in the World is Elisabeth? (Update): First High Heels in a Chair</title><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Tender Foodie Update</category><dc:creator>Sue Chef Chaitin</dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 27 Jul 2016 23:19:03 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/7/27/where-in-the-world-is-elisabeth-update-first-high-heels-in-a.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35742349</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/FIRST-HIGH-HEELS.450.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1469663357749" alt="" /></span></span></p>
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<h3>PROGRESS UPDATE ON ELISABETH, THE TENDER FOODIE</h3>
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<p>Hello,  Sue Chaitin here with a little progress on Beth. Many people ask if she is  getting better. The answer is both yes and no. Lyme is a complicated  disease to treat, and she has &ldquo;won the jackpot,&rdquo; as the doctor told her,  on the type and number of co-infections, as well.  She has several  co-infections that she got when the tick bit her, and some of them are  very, very tough. She continues to improve, yet still has many  frustrating and sometimes frightening ups and downs. She does her best  to take them in stride. Right now, she is grateful to be able to drive  to get groceries and to be able to take care of her daily needs. She  couldn&rsquo;t do this when we left for Albany in May. I told her that I don&rsquo;t  know how she does it, and she responded, &ldquo;I don&rsquo;t know either!&rdquo; She  wants to be able to get back to work full time, and is using her time as  wisely as possible until then to start writing again.<br /> <br /> Her physician said that recovery usually takes a seesaw type of pattern.  He asks her the same 2 questions upon every visit: what is better than  last time? What is worse than last time? Then asks the same to questions  to compare her progress from when she first arrived. He is looking to  see that there is a slow, steady upward trend, and that the ups and  downs follow that trend. He is also looking very specifically at the  symptoms that line up with each co-infection. Her muscle weakness, for  instance is better, yet she still have acute episodes where she suddenly  feels like she can&rsquo;t walk. This can come on suddenly now, but leave  within a day or two. As long as these symptoms &ldquo;move through&rdquo; and  dissipate, this can be a good sign that they are being drawn out and  handled by the current treatment plan. Her brain function and speech  stay consistently better and better, and her vision is getting back to  normal. Again, ups and downs, but a steady upward trend here. Her  digestive issues are still a problem. What had not been improving was  her heart symptoms and some neurological issues where limbs spasm and  sometimes go numb. She had been waking up every 2 hours throughout the  night soaked in sweat and jolted out of bed by a pounding heart. Her  doctor then worked with two naturopaths to address this, as the drugs  were not handling the night terrors and associated heart issues  properly, and her body was stuck in a fight or flight pattern that had a  mind of its own.  Thankfully, with what she is calling, &ldquo;her magic  drops&rdquo; from this new course of treatment, the night terrors and heart  palpitations are starting to dissipate and she finally has been getting a  few straight hours of sleep. Sleep will also help her progress.<br /> <br /> The other issue that has gotten worse, are her allergies to chemicals in  perfumes, lotions, and detergents. This is particularly frustrating as  many new patients, or relatives of patients who come to visit the IV  room, forget that perfumes are not allowed in that room. She has to  quickly exit the room as her lungs start to burn, fill up, and she gets  dizzy and nauseated. This is not uncommon for Lyme patients whose immune  systems have been hammered. Another patient used to pass out when  exposed to perfume. This patient was able to, when the Lyme infections  were more under control, heal from that. We hope this happens for Beth,  as well. The nurses are wonderful, and quickly relocate her to another  space, and the entire staff at Stram is working to help minimize this  risk for her and other patients. <br /> <br /> She has had these infections for a really long time, however, so the  long term prognosis is still in question. Also, testing is not very  sensitive and prohibitively expensive, so the physicians have to rely on  symptoms. Physicians can&rsquo;t, like with other infections, treat and then  test to see if everything is &ldquo;gone.&rdquo; She was recently off of the IV  antibiotics for a week to see how she would do. Some symptoms stayed  steady, while others, like the heart and neurological issues got worse.  And because it kept her from sleeping, she was miserable. As a result,  she is back on IV and will taper off over the next few weeks, and then  re-evaluate again. This may have to happen several times until the  symptoms resolve, and hopefully go away or into a remissive state. A  long treatment was something that we had expected, and why it is so  important for her to be able to stay with a physician who is on the  forefront of treatment.<br /> <br /> <br /> Here is something she posted on Facebook that gives you a quick insight into what she goes through:</p>
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<p><span class="full-image-float-left ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 150px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/FIRST-HIGH-HEELS.450.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1469672326452" alt="" /></span></span>Saturday, I stood in the middle of Target, with my legs giving out from  under me, acutely, my muscles just weakened, and I wasn't sure if I  would make it back to the car. I did. But that just made me more  determined to wear these today (see photo at top.) The doc said that  improvement takes a seesaw like pattern. And to not be discouraged by a  downward drop, but look for a slow, general upward trajectory. Pink high  heels qualify, I think. Flip flops in the bag just in case. But these  are more fun to look at while getting drugged up.</p>
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<p><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 450px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/PatternOnPatternSleep.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1469672246200" alt="" /></span></span><br /> We really appreciate your continued <strong><a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank">spiritual, emotional, and financial  support</a></strong>, it means so much. It is very stressful for Beth to be so ill,  and know that her life depends upon money. She is with some of the best  experts in the field of Lyme Disease. Your continued <strong><a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank">financial support</a></strong> will help her finish this course of treatment and stay safe. We will  continue to keep you posted! Beth has been keeping a diary when she can, as it is very therapeutic (especially for a writer!), and will start to back fill some of the posts so that the dates will be in some kind of order. So look for more of the "Love Bite Diaries" soon.</p>
<p>Sincerely,</p>
<p>Sue Chaitin</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35742349.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Love Bite Diaries #6: Three More Steps to Being in the Pink</title><category>Charles David</category><category>Inspiration</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Pink High Heels</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 24 Jun 2016 21:21:00 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/24/love-bite-diaries-6-three-more-steps-to-being-in-the-pink.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35721441</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 450px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/PinkCharlesDavidShoesGOAL.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1467516617374" alt="" /></span></span></p>
<h4>&nbsp;June 24, 2016</h4>
<h3>What Makes You Strut?</h3>
<p>There are 3 steps leading toward the IV room at the doctor's office,  and I just sorta trotted up them. I shocked myself and exclaimed to one of my  nurses, Wendy, with a few tears, "I just kinda ran up the steps!" We  celebrated for a moment. Me in my flip flops, and she with a syringe in her hand. Quietly, but truly celebrated with that little spark of spontaneous joy. I love Wendy.</p>
<p>It is remarkable what an infection can do. Just a few weeks ago, I was having a great deal of trouble going up and especially down even one step, because my muscles were becoming shockingly and suddenly weak. I'd see a step, panic, and then strategize how I would make my way down. A flight of stairs took an odd amount of courage. I lived in a second floor apartment and it was literally 24 hours between my ability to walk down the steps without blinking, and then pausing in fear as if I were at the top of Everest. If someone were watching, I tried to walk down like a super model, but could see how dreadfully I failed by the looks on my friend's faces. I think I take so many pictures of shoes and my feet, because in May, I was beginning to wonder if I would be in a wheelchair by June. Lyme likes to attack ligaments and joints, and for me it is the ligaments in the hips and shoulder - this time on my left side, and more recently my left knee and elbow, as well. Then all of my muscles got weak. When this first started, it focused more on my right side, but at my sickest I would wake up with all of my limbs temporarily paralized for hours. The fatigue then, was stunning. Neverending. But at that time I was told that I would be lucky if I lived.</p>
<p>But I did live. In February, I as I started feeling like myself again, I had moments that I could skip around like a teenager. I love to move. Then the door froze shut behind me, I was without a coat, and my   skippy little feet found a patch of ice outside and hit only one thing -   my head. Concussion.</p>
<p>I was starting to work out again on my Total Gym after adjusting my IV treatment at my regular physician's office in Michigan. As the infection was killed off, I could build my muscle back up again, but I could tell there was something blocking my progress. In 2013 and 2014, I was having trouble getting out of the car without falling. My left leg just couldn't hold any weight on its own. I couldn't open doors with my left arm, or hold anything reliably in my left hand. It was simply too weak.</p>
<p>A couple of years before that, I was doing handstands in yoga class. After working my way out of a terrible relapse that happened shortly after I moved to Michigan, I got my stiff back into backbends again, and felt my power return. I would go from very athletic to feeling like aliens took over my body. Once, my muscles were spasming so severely that my Dad brought me to my medical masage therapist, and the therapist had to bring me home and carry me inside. This is scary stuff. Each relapse was brought on by extreme stress and the lack of my own knowlege as well as medical knowlege about Lyme Disease and its co-infections did nothing to stop it. I had never, until recently, heard the word, "co-infection."</p>
<p>Co-infections are one of 16 ways, according to Dr. Horowitz, that keep people with Lyme sick - chronic, they call it. I hate that word, "chronic." But so it has been.</p>
<p><strong>Now, I wait to see which co-infections I actually have. </strong></p>
<p>Each time I relapse, I put out a pair of beautiful high heeled shoes to keep me going toward a goal. I put them where I can pass by them every day. I keep them out to remind me that there is beauty in the world, and people to see, and streets to strut. I like homework, you see. I like something to concentrate on besides feeling like crap. "Hope" is too namby pamby. It feels like a cruel, unattainable joke with a bad, bad punchline. Homework, now that I get. A target, a goal. A bullseye.</p>
<p>Pink high heels.</p>
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<p><em>The Love Bite Diary started as notes to friends. These are  friends from all over the world, brought  to my laptop through that  sorcery called Facebook. Until I catch up, the  entries of the diary  will not match the dates of the posts.&nbsp;I hope to  add the stories of  some of the incredible people I am meeting. In the meantime, I hope you are glad to be  on this exploration  with me, and that it is helpful to each of you in  some way. </em></p>
<p><em>~ Thank you, Elisabeth</em></p>
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<h4><strong>DATE: JUNE 19, 2016</strong></h4>
<h3>Still Facing the Stairs</h3>
<p>Things are continuing to progress here - I am walking better, although the stairs still terrify me. My  speech is almost back to normal, although my neurological issues continue - my brain is on a 2 or 3 second delay behind my intention, and driving is tough, as mild spacial issues come and go like how wide the exit ramps are, etc. So it is great that I am just down the street from the doctor's office and treatment center now.</p>
<p>But this also makes it continue to be difficult to communicate. Especially about detailed allergen research on any medication, especially oral meds. Oral medications use fillers that include wheat, dairy, corn and tapioca. Tapioca has been a very common gluten-free filler or starch. It flies through the air with the greatest of ease and lands anywhere in the factory - and on products that don't contain it in their ingredients. It took a dangerously building reaction to make me realize why I was throwing up, swelling up, and feeling little steel fingers grab my throat after eating foods that never bothered me before. Vitamin C is sometimes derived from tapioca, too. More on that later.</p>
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<h3>We Affect Each Other</h3>
<p>When I first told my friend Sue what my secret life was like (when it was secret), she said,"Thank you for sharing this with me. This sucks! This must end. You are going to get fixed no matter what it costs." She wondered why I was hiding. She called me up and asked. She was hearing me slur my words as I tried to cover it up. She saw me grab onto handrails like they were life rafts as I gingerly went down stairs and had noticed that I was falling a lot. She could hear that I had given up.</p>
<p>Sometimes we just need someone to care enough to notice.</p>
<p>This relapse had actually started with my left arm a few years ago. It became useless. I was doing handstands and walking on my hands, and then found that I couldn't support my weight on my arm anymore. I went to different doctors. Some looked at my rotator cuff and prescribed physical therapy (which did nothing or made it worse), others just said, "huh."</p>
<p>Even the doctors who knew I had been diagnosed with Lyme.</p>
<p>I got back into treatment, and got back on my feet. Thought I was OK. But, there was an enormous amount of building and long-term stress in my life over those years, and my body just couldn't take it anymore. As soon as I stopped the treatment, my entire left side slowly became so weak I couldn't put weight on my left leg. Then my knees "disappeared."</p>
<p><strong>As many experienced Lymies have said, "Lyme Disease loves stress."</strong></p>
<p>If you are out there an experience similar bizarre things that come and go and make you feel suddenly older or hermit-like, I hope you have someone who reaches into your business and pulls you back out. If not, gather your britches and fight for yourself. You are not crazy. You are stronger than you think you are. We are ultimately in charge of ourselves, but, opening up to a trusted friend also opened the door to a new and necessary kind of support that I've never had before.</p>
<p>We need each other. We affect each other. So much. I learned that it is OK to be the weak one and need help. I hate that. I really, really hate that. I want to be the mother hen that gathers people in and helps them heal. But it is OK. To need help. It is OK, because it is the truth. Don't let anyone tell you that it isn't. Even if those people are those you love. Or "experts."</p>
<p>Thus goes this leap of faith. And an unknown road ahead.</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35721438.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Love Bite Diary #4: These Wounds I Have Had on St. Crispin's Day!</title><category>Kilroy was here</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>courage in healing</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 21 Jun 2016 21:10:00 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/21/love-bite-diary-4-these-wounds-i-have-had-on-st-crispins-day.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35721435</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><em><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 450px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/Kilroy.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1469674107626" alt="" /></span></span>The Love Bite Diary started as notes to friends. These are friends from all over the world, brought  to my laptop through that sorcery called Facebook. Until I catch up, the  entries of the diary will not match the dates of the posts.&nbsp;I hope to  add the stories of some of the incredible people I am meeting, offer  practical advice as I learn and get more on my feet, and eventually  interview experts in the treatment of Lyme Disease. And recipes - in  time, there will be recipes. In the meantime, I hope you are glad to be  on this exploration with me, and that it is helpful to each of you in  some way. </em></p>
<p><em>~ Thank you, Elisabeth</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h4>June 12, 2016</h4>
<h3>The Beauty in the Break Down</h3>
<p>Thursday, I broke down at the doctor's office. I absolutely sobbed in front of the practice manager. So many things are  hitting me at once, struggling with symptoms as I wait for all of the  blood work to come back, not sleeping, slurring my words like a sailor  on leave, handling the initial treatment plan and the changes in it,  looking at the bills, getting to know a new nurse, finding out that my insurance subsidy was cancelled, running into  perfumed people and having to run away (hobble desparately) from them as my lungs fill up,  moving to a new, albeit temporary home when I feel like a truck and all  of his tiny truck cousins hit me, stuff like that.</p>
<p>It sometimes feels  like this world simply doesn't want me here. I beg to differ.</p>
<p>But then  Thursday night, I slept a little bit. By Friday afternoon, I felt like  trying the elliptical machine that is set up in the IV room at the  medical center. The nurses encourage patients to slowly move their bods  with a sexy little oxygen tube up the nose because it helps the IV drips  go deeper into your system. I hadn't had the heart to do it yet - I  tried the treadmill one day, but it felt like I was, as one patient put  it, "walking on baby deer legs" with a tiny elephant settling his ample  buttocks upon my chest, and then schooching around to get comfortable.  But Friday, I was able to walk slowly on the elliptical for 5 minutes,  and then another few, and then another few, and I could feel that my  body has a lot of strength in there somewhere.</p>
<p>Some days I can walk. Other days it feels like my kneecaps are missing or about to snap in two. Or like Harry Potter did when he was the victim of a nefarious spell, rendering him boneless.</p>
<p>Saturday, my friend John  came up from New York City after finding clothes that were not dried  with Bounce, and to help me move into the new apartment. He walked into  the heavily scented leasing office at the apartment complex to get the  keys for me, since my lungs couldn't walk in there. He then cheerfully moved the bins and suitcases like they were fun  little marshmallows. He patiently watched me eat some food at home, then  plopped me down at an outdoor restaurant so he could sup, where real  people and trees and sunshine lived. &ldquo;So, how did I do with the no scent  clothes? I did good, right?&rdquo; He did good.</p>
<p>Saturday night I slept for  several hours at a time. Today the tiny elephant seems much less  interested in my chest. So, as my immune system gets supported and  infections start getting a slap on the wrist, and loving friends step in  to help, Health, <strong><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFw8MSF7yE4" target="_blank">like Kilroy</a></strong> peers warily over this wall that has  separated me from life. Then, this afternoon I turned the oven on. The  fumes from the oven cleaner that was sprayed but not wiped out before I  got there almost knocked me out. I stumbled gagging into the bedroom to call  maintenance to clean it. He sorta did, but Michael the maintenance guy  was very kind and took it as seriously as he could. &ldquo;This cleaner is  non-toxic,&rdquo; he said, then nodded genuinely as I retorted, &ldquo;perhaps for  you.&rdquo; And I highly doubt that it is non-toxic for him. Someone like me  is just that wonderful red flag of society. He put an industrial size  fan in the apartment to air it out as the rest burned off. This evening, I am  trapped in my bedroom, windows and doors wide open on this cool, wet  afternoon and evening, eating my first food of the day at 6pm. The oven  is off, but the fumes are still there at 8:27pm. My poor lungs.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h3>Putting the Pieces Back Together As I Find Them</h3>
<p><span class="full-image-float-left ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 200px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/IMG_1552.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1469672866047" alt="" /></span><span class="thumbnail-caption" style="width: 200px;">Oxygen &amp; writing glasses are so sexy.</span></span>There is a long road ahead, and Monday I meet with the doctor to go over  all of the blood work. Wish me luck - my hope is that the co-infectons  are the kind that can be eradicated for good. At the least I will have  the right plan this time to help me manage this and any relapses before  they happen and be in a better position to do so, thanks to all of you. I  write to you today, not because I want to complain or ask for sympathy,  but because I am considering blogging about Lyme Disease. I&rsquo;ve blogged  about food and food allergies before but have never been comfortable  blogging much about MY food allergies, let alone a mystery illness and  now a complex, infectious, tick borne disease at which people have  tended to roll their eyes. YET - so many people have had their lives  completely altered from it, and it is one of the fastest growing  diseases with such little knowledge gained in the medical world to  support the patients. In order to treat patients properly, the medical  system and thinking will have to be turned on its head. Can I help by  writing? I don&rsquo;t know.</p>
<p>My plan for <a rel="nofollow" href="http://l.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Ftenderfoodie.com%2F&amp;h=sAQEVB5NrAQHYHQU8NRbfYXAaw0KPZJQaf_DNWSgx9yoVAg&amp;enc=AZM5UGZBDFs7akF0H4HQS70_SSymPT5RoxpxoAtHI4JyMtfB-yHY2oMDFTy12P4fIGAfQQzkJmlSUS8SDSaL3bPKGz__OLAcycFROWoxwJQU1r08YoCYbXENih2HxCrgCRUYHKBW36fbUkNdDaY6lu8W_bpY5KG0yXXuSNptUnzgmw&amp;s=1" target="_blank">tenderfoodie.com</a>,  before I had to abandon it, was to start with food and immune issues,  then go into other diseases like Lyme as I learned more about it, and  AFTER I was triumphant in my battle so I could keep myself out of it. I  wonder what you all think about just writing as the fires are burning  and before I know what will happen - it just doesn't feel right to be a  writer and be silent if writing about it can help. I value my privacy  dearly, but there is so little of that left now! There will be haters as  there is a huge and ridiculous divide in the medical community STILL  that claims Lyme is not real. Why? I have no clue. It is real. Besides  myself, I have seen so many other patients on the broad rainbow of Lyme  symptoms. Some people walk around and look fine and feel fine, while  others look fine but are quite ill and have learned to mask their  symptoms. Some have been disabled for years &ndash; stalked by insurance  investigators looking for any excuse to revoke claims. Still others have  lost the ability to move and walk and talk without help. This is a  tragic thing to behold. Some have died because they had no help. Some  are living in mystery, shamed by family, friends, employers or doctors  because mysteries are great until it involves someone&rsquo;s health. We want  our money&rsquo;s worth out of our relationships, don&rsquo;t we? At this clinic,  very severe cases seek healing, and I have been seeing more of these  firsthand. Jumping into the conversation personally will invite  comments, well-meaning or shaming that will upset me. Insecurities of  other people and of my own will arise. I am not sure if I can handle it.</p>
<p>Right now, I need to focus on my own healing. I need to start  working again. This is a priority. But as I heal, I write.  I can&rsquo;t help  it. As I get my writing faculties back, and the muscles in my arms and hands function more consistently; as I see the seriousness of Lyme  around me, talk to more and more Lyme patients and hear the nurses&rsquo;  most incredible perspectives, I feel an overwhelmingly protective battle  cry. It feels like it is time to appear between the trees like <strong><a title="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-yZNMWFqvM" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-yZNMWFqvM" target="_blank">Kenneth  Branagh in his St. Crispin&rsquo;s Day Speech as Henry V</a></strong>: &ldquo;for he that hath no  stomach for this fight, let him depart.&rdquo;</p>
<p>It feels like this  needs to get personal, &ldquo; &hellip; Then will he strip his sleeves and show his  scars and say, &lsquo;these wounds I&rsquo;ve had on St. Crispin&rsquo;s Day!'&rdquo;</p>
<p>And that the timing might be right, &ldquo;&hellip; All things be ready if our minds be so!&rdquo;</p>
<p>You are helping me, and with your support, maybe blogging and showing  my wounds a little can help others. I am putting another toe in the  water, here.</p>
<p>Please feel free to comment below or send your thoughts to me in a private email. I appreciate anything that you have to say.</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35721435.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Love Bite Diary #3: Some Practical Advice from the Dash</title><category>Athletes</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Tips</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 19 Jun 2016 17:56:00 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/19/love-bite-diary-3-some-practical-advice-from-the-dash.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35725688</guid><description><![CDATA[<!--  /* Font Definitions */ @font-face 	{font-family:"Cambria Math"; 	panose-1:0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0; 	mso-font-charset:1; 	mso-generic-font-family:roman; 	mso-font-format:other; 	mso-font-pitch:variable; 	mso-font-signature:0 0 0 0 0 0;} @font-face 	{font-family:Calibri; 	panose-1:2 15 5 2 2 2 4 3 2 4; 	mso-font-charset:0; 	mso-generic-font-family:auto; 	mso-font-pitch:variable; 	mso-font-signature:-536870145 1073786111 1 0 415 0;} @font-face 	{font-family:Optima; 	panose-1:2 0 5 3 6 0 0 2 0 4; 	mso-font-charset:0; 	mso-generic-font-family:auto; 	mso-font-pitch:variable; 	mso-font-signature:-2147483545 0 0 0 1 0;}  /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal 	{mso-style-unhide:no; 	mso-style-qformat:yes; 	mso-style-parent:""; 	margin:0in; 	margin-bottom:.0001pt; 	mso-pagination:widow-orphan; 	font-size:11.0pt; 	font-family:Optima; 	mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri; 	mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-latin; 	mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; 	mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi;} p 	{mso-style-noshow:yes; 	mso-style-priority:99; 	mso-margin-top-alt:auto; 	margin-right:0in; 	mso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; 	margin-left:0in; 	mso-pagination:widow-orphan; 	font-size:12.0pt; 	font-family:"Times New Roman"; 	mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri; 	mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-latin;} .MsoChpDefault 	{mso-style-type:export-only; 	mso-default-props:yes; 	font-size:11.0pt; 	mso-ansi-font-size:11.0pt; 	mso-bidi-font-size:11.0pt; 	font-family:Optima; 	mso-ascii-font-family:Optima; 	mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri; 	mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-latin; 	mso-hansi-font-family:Optima; 	mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; 	mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi;} @page WordSection1 	{size:8.5in 11.0in; 	margin:1.0in 1.0in 1.0in 1.0in; 	mso-header-margin:.5in; 	mso-footer-margin:.5in; 	mso-paper-source:0;} div.WordSection1 	{page:WordSection1;} -->
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<p><em>The Love Bite Diary started as notes to friends. It was therapeutic, as a writer and as a human, to simply express a long held secret. I was struggling in and out of physical functioning and brain firing, but my friends made it feel safe to write, and encouraged me to do so, when I could. These are friends from all over the world, brought to my laptop through that sorcery called Facebook. Until I catch up, the entries of the diary will not match the dates of the posts, as many entries had to be heavily edited and back dated, after I a great amount of healing - as I was in no shape to write at all for several months.&nbsp;I hope to add the stories of some of the incredible people I am meeting, offer practical advice as I learn and get more on my feet, and eventually interview experts in the treatment of Lyme Disease. And recipes - in time, there will be recipes. In the meantime, I hope you are glad to be on this exploration with me, and that it is helpful to each of you in some way. </em></p>
<p><em>~ Thank you, Elisabeth</em></p>
<p><em><br /></em></p>
<h2>May 26, 2016</h2>
<h3>A big update!</h3>
<p>I am going to Albany, NY on Sunday and have an appointment with a top Lyme specialist there, Dr. Stram, who works very closely with Dr. Horowitz, an internationally recognized expert who is fully booked, and unable to accept more patients. Although Dr. Minkoff in Florida is another physician who is recognized for his excellent work, I keep hearing success stories about Dr. Horowitz&rsquo;s protocol, and when a last minute appointment opened up with Dr. Stram, who uses this protocol, I grabbed it. It appe<span class="textexposedshow">ars that the Lyme has traveled to my heart and lungs, and this is the urgency that is pushing me to find exactly the right physician and do it quickly. Thanks to you all, I have enough money to at least get started with him and to be able to jump on this appointment, and am acting on faith that the rest will come in as needed. Sue keeps telling me to stop thanking her, but she will have to put up with eternal gratitude <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/3/where-in-the-world-is-elisabeth-the-tender-foodie.html" target="_blank">for everything that she has done</a></strong> and is doing. Thank you, Sue. And thank you to everyone who has stepped in to help in some way. I feel supported and loved, and grateful.</span></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h3>Important Information from the Experts</h3>
<p>As I learn for myself, it is clear that we all need to learn more about Lyme Disease. Here is some excellent information from Dr. Richard Horowitz, M.D., the physician mentioned above. He is the New York Times Best Selling author of "Why Can&rsquo;t I Get Better? Solving the Mystery of Lyme and Chronic Disease." Lyme is on the rise, so please read and share the article below. This is one bug bite that .... if you are informed and act quickly ... if you get the right physician and the right treatment for the specific infections that were transferred.. and get that treatment for a long enough period of time (longer than the CDC suggests) ... you can beat Lyme and many of its co-infecitons. If you don't, the consequences can be devastating and life changing beyond belief.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.foxnews.com/health/2016/05/25/lyme-disease-debate-can-condition-be-chronic.html" target="_blank">The Lyme disease debate: Can the condition be chronic?</a></strong></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://www.foxnews.com/health/2016/05/25/lyme-disease-debate-can-condition-be-chronic.html" target="_blank">Read or listen to the interview in full</a>, but here are some of the highlights:</strong></p>
<p><strong><br /></strong></p>
<h3>Dear Medical Community, Stop Fighting and Start Learning</h3>
<p>There are two sets of guidelines for diagnosing and treating Lyme.  One is by the Infectious Disease Society of America (IDSA) and the other  is by ILADS &mdash; Dr. Horowitz was one of the founding members of ILADS, the  International Lyme and Associated Disease Society. Here is what he says about the controversy:</p>
<blockquote>
<p>These two guidelines are different. One says the  tests are reliable and you can cure it with 30 days, and the other  guidelines say you can't. Right now, the IDSA are redoing their  guidelines. The Lyme groups have sent extensive scientific references to  the IDSA on how poor the testing is and that Lyme can exist &hellip; the  controversy, the politics of Lyme now that [are] really interfering with  doctors knowing what to do, but we really need to put our swords aside,  because we're in the middle of an epidemic. This is the No. 1  vector-borne spreading epidemic in the U.S.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h3>Some Quick, But Essential Facts</h3>
<p>1. More ticks are coming out 3 weeks earlier than usual as our planet warms up</p>
<p>2. The ticks that carry Lyme diseases are younger than before and are so tiny that you can hardly see them - called nymphs</p>
<p>3. Ticks now carry many types of Lyme related diseases - over 100 different types of Lyme in the United States, and over 300 world wide. Just in one tick bite, you can get infected with multiple organisms</p>
<p>4. PREVENTION: Some of the different type of co-infections are Lyme related pneumonia; Babesia, which is a malaria like infection; ehrlichiosis, and many more because of migrating birds, deer, and mice carry ticks with ease from country to country and state to state. There are also NEW co-infections showing up:</p>
<blockquote>You need to do <strong>prevention</strong> because one of the  viruses we're now  finding, the Powassan virus can get into your body  within 15 minutes of a  tick bite, and the mortality rates are 10 to 15  percent &mdash; up to 30  percent in some studies. So you could get multiple  viruses &hellip; relapsing  fever bacteria, a malarial organism like babesia,  with one tick bite. It  overwhelms the immune system and that's one of  the reasons people don't  get better. ~Dr. Horowitz<br /><br /></blockquote>
<p>5. Lyme is called, "The Great Imitator" because it is a multi-systemic disorder (affects many systems in the body) and can affect each patient uniquely. Alzheimer's, Multiple Schlerosis (M.S.), fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome (CFIDS) / M.E., psychiatric disorders like Schizophrenia, ALS, even anxiety and depression. Dr. Horowitz has seen patients with each of these diagnoses get better when treated for Lyme and its co-infections.</p>
<p>6. Send any ticks that you find and suspect that it has bitten you or your pet to a lab for testing. Most state health departments have a form on their sites that you can fill out and send the tick in a vial for testing.</p>
<p>7. Lyme Disease is a clinical diagnosis. Why? Testing is not sensitive enough, not complete enough, and is often inaccurate. If your test comes back negative, yet you have symptoms such as recurring fever, chills, migrating pain, fatigue, sudden memory lapses, muscle aches and weakness, headaches, numbness, burning, joint pain - these are classic signs of the beginning stages of Lyme and also several of the co-infections. . . you may still have Lyme.</p>
<p>8. Less than half of us get a rash when bitten. SO. Whether you have a rash or not, or if you find a tick that is tough to remove or engorged, or if you have symtpoms of Lyme, go see a Lyme literate physician and discuss getting started with antibiotics before any tests come back.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<blockquote>
<p>Q: So say I get exposed to Lyme disease and I don't realize it, time goes by, now it's a year later &hellip; can I get better?<br /><br />A: Yes, you can. There is hope for people with chronic Lyme. I've found that there's up to 16 reasons why people stay ill with Lyme. One of the largest parts are these co-infections in the ticks like babesia. Over 80 percent of the time, this malarial organism &mdash; it's a parasite &mdash; it's getting into people, making them sick &hellip; the [patients] who have day sweats, night sweats, chills. I had a woman in a wheelchair for six years paralyzed from the waist down ... within 10 days of treating the babesia with antibiotics and antimalarial [drugs], she was walking.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Lastly, to end this on a positive note, if you are outside, wear light colored clothing so you can see any ticks that might happen upon you. DO TICK CHECKS. Remove the tick with a tweezers but don't squeeze it - this could actually inject organisms into your blood stream! Read more about what Dr. Horowitz says about prevention so that you can enjoy the summer! He recommends types of sprays and how to use them.</p>
<p>Here is the article again: <strong><a href="http://www.foxnews.com/health/2016/05/25/lyme-disease-debate-can-condition-be-chronic.html">Read it and watch his interview.</a></strong>&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35725688.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Love Bite Diary #2: When It's Bigger on the Inside</title><category>Louis C.K.</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>opera singer</category><category>writer</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 17 Jun 2016 04:04:00 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/17/love-bite-diary-2-when-its-bigger-on-the-inside.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35720430</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><em><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 450px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/LeapOfFaithTransport.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1467322409959" alt="" /></span></span></em></p>
<p><em><br />The Love Bite Diary started as notes to friends. It was therapeutic, as a writer and as a human, to simply express a longheld secret. I was struggling in and out of physical functioning and brain firing, but my friends made it feel safe to write, and encouraged me to do so. These are friends from all over the world, brought to my laptop through that sorcery called Facebook. Until I catch up, the entries of the diary will not match the dates of the posts. I hope to add the stories of some of the incredible people I am meeting, offer practical advice as I learn and get more on my feet, and eventually interview experts in the treatment of Lyme Disease. And recipes - in time, there will be recipes. In the meantime, I hope you are glad to be on this exploration with me, and that it is helpful to each of you in some way. <br /></em></p>
<p><em>~ Thank you, Elisabeth</em></p>
<p>&nbsp;If you would like to read the entire story, from the very beginning, <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/3/where-in-the-world-is-elisabeth-the-tender-foodie.html" target="_blank">start here</a></strong>.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h2>May 17, 2016</h2>
<h3>Birthday Wish</h3>
<p>Today, May 17, is my birthday. Every Christmas, for a very, very long   time, I would think, &ldquo;By my next birthday, I&rsquo;m going to get better.&rdquo;   When May 17 rears its gorgeous little head, I say, &ldquo;By Christmas, I&rsquo;m   going to figure this illness out. Hey, I&rsquo;ll be able to work on that   Christmas album I plan every year! I&rsquo;ll sing again, and write those   songs with Prince!  I&rsquo;ll travel and see friends all over the world, and   spend more time with nieces and nephews! I&rsquo;ll run every morning and  play  tennis again, and get back to yoga -- and twist my body into a  pretzel  ON PURPOSE!! I&rsquo;ll launch one or two of those internet companies  that  I&rsquo;ve done business plans for - Tender Palate, included. Maybe  I&rsquo;ll be able to write all four books  that I have outlined! In fact,  I&rsquo;ll be the only one who brings Barbara  Walters out of retirement when  those books become best sellers! I&rsquo;ll  fall in love! It&rsquo;s going to be a  great year!&rdquo;</p>
<p>I also promise  myself that I&rsquo;ll figure out how to make illness  funny. Then write about  it. Because humor helps us understand  ourselves, an essential ingredient  in understanding each other; and  humor, like kindness, helps us heal.  Besides, illness without humor or  curiosity is boring, and without  laughter it is easier to be just angry  and sad. I have a show idea  running around in my head, along with a  marriage proposal designed  especially for <a class="profileLink" href="https://www.facebook.com/pages/Louis-CK/105939016107693">Louis C.K.</a> If I could get to him, I am sure he would accept. But I fail. Every   stinking year, I fail, and every year, I end up in the same cycle of   survival and then have to forgive myself for it.  Every day, in fact.</p>
<p>If I do forgive myself, and sometimes that is the only thing I can do   that day, then I am surprised at where I find joy. It&rsquo;s an odd  surprise,  really, how a glimmer of joy can spark the creative exercise  of  reinvention - if I can get through those times when I can&rsquo;t think or   move, or lift my head, and when things seem hopeless, I&rsquo;ll figure this   out. It is a sweet shock how life, when you are forced to make it so   much smaller than was planned or wanted, can get bigger on the inside.   If you are lovingly and brutally honest with yourself, if you feel the   deepest, and most unpopular feels. . .the grief, the rage, the panic &hellip;   and get help to process what we are too &ldquo;nice&rdquo; to feel&hellip;  you can allow   that reinvention on a microcosmic, spiritual level, too. That&rsquo;s horribly   difficult, but very cool.</p>
<p>A few months ago, however, I realized  that this birthday is a  crossroads for me. It has become clear that no  amount of patience, hard  work, faith, or reinvention would work. That I  wasn&rsquo;t bouncing back  from stress and its subsequent relapse like I had  in the past, even  with the intense treatment that used to get me  &ldquo;functioning.&rdquo; The  symptoms came rushing back with shocking speed as  soon as I stopped  those treatments. I saw myself in my mind standing at  that ridiculous  crossroads, where one sign read, &ldquo;Keep Straight: take  this road toward a  possibly slow, possibly fast, but lonely, and  stress-filled demise&rdquo;  while the other read, &ldquo;Radical Change Ahead: the  right knowledge and  great healing is this way, and you may even get your  whole life back!  But if you want to live, you need to pay for it.&rsquo;</p>
<p>With the help of my friend, Sue, I launched a <strong><a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank">GoFundMe campaign</a></strong> - and coming to that decision was a humiliating exercise. But it has   reignited my fiery internal Mars as I grab this cagey beast by its face,   and stare down every fear that once had me curled into a sobbing ball   of snot on the floor. Oddly, this campaign has also been an incredibly   healing experience. People with complex illnesses like Lyme are on the   outside of every single system of support in our country. Insurance   fails you, there is little to no funded research, so there are some in   the medical community that don&rsquo;t understand how dangerous mistreatment   can be. With the RIGHT treatment, right away, no one has to suffer like   this. But no research money also means that it is up to a few, rare,   curious, smart and caring physicians who have the background and   experience to help those patients whose health has spiraled out of   control. Usually these doctors have a family member with this disease,   or a steady stream of patients with a painfully familiar pattern. These   docs have the humility to explore when their knowledge reaches the end   of its tether, not blame the patient. They have the tenacity to follow   through until the problem is solved or they have a plan. They learn  from  each other. The amount of effort that it has taken to try to fit  into  those established systems, as a patient or a doctor, has been  exhausting  and has wasted energy, time and money. It has given me hope,  however,  to find physicians out there who have actually cured and  helped people  with chronic and complex Lyme.</p>
<p>Your notes, and financial and  spiritual gifts have given me hope  that I might get to one of these  experts. You have given me courage  when I was starting to seriously lack  it. I could not find my courage,  nor my sense of humor, and did not  know where to turn. I have been  terrified. You have given me practical,  feet on the ground help, which I  have needed, even more than I realized.  Help from actual people makes  this illness and its consequences even  more real, though, because now  other people are reflecting back what  they see. I can&rsquo;t pretend that  I&rsquo;m normal, anymore. When someone truly  sees you struggling, and  acknowledges it, it is sobering. Denial and its  sneaky cohorts wash  away and you can more clearly see where the beast  has left you raw and  helpless. But you can also more clearly see what to  do about it, too.</p>
<p>When all of the strength you have that day &ndash;  and the next, and also  the next - is to write a long, humbling  dissertation to the Internet  asking for help, you know you are in a  hard, cruel place. So, on this  birthday, which kicks the full-figured  arse of all other birthdays, I  am facing another fear. I am directly  asking for a birthday present  from friends and total strangers, if you  can. And please forward this  to anyone and everyone. Tell them to read  the <strong><a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank">GoFundMe story</a></strong> that Sue  so graciously wrote and so kindly bossed me into publishing. If people   are moved in ANY way, tell them they could give someone the best   birthday gift imaginable &ndash; health. Those of you who know me even a   little, understand that I am not at all shy, but am very private. You   may be used to protecting that privacy, whether you know it or not. I   have so appreciated that. Well, the secret is out, the jig is up, the   cat&rsquo;s out of the bag, the boys are in the yard, and the gate is open &hellip;   so share your heart out. I hope, one day I can repay you all in some   way. It will be impossible, I realize, but I will put that on the list   with the books and the album and the kids, and Barbara Walters. Prince,   you will have to wait. We'll go crazy in The Afterlife one day. Right   now, I would be so grateful just to be able to do the dishes, be around   people without my lungs filling up and throat closing because someone   wore perfume, walk down stairs without wondering if my muscles will   work; and be able breathe and poop and sleep and move through life   without considering whether or not the person drawing my chalk outline   will make me look fat &hellip; and also, I just want to be able to be there for   those I love,  &hellip; and just get back to work.</p>
<p>With my deepest and most heartfelt thanks,</p>
<p>Beth</p>]]></description><wfw:commentRss>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/rss-comments-entry-35720430.xml</wfw:commentRss></item><item><title>Love Bite Diary #1: I Never Knew it Could Do That To You.</title><category>Celebrities with Lyme</category><category>Doctor Visits</category><category>Events</category><category>Heartfelt thoughts</category><category>Inspiration</category><category>Kris Kristofferson</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>Lyme Disease</category><category>dairy-free</category><dc:creator>Elisabeth Veltman, The Tender Foodie</dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 16 Jun 2016 00:42:30 +0000</pubDate><link>http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/15/love-bite-diary-1-i-never-knew-it-could-do-that-to-you.html</link><guid isPermaLink="false">796780:9346039:35714257</guid><description><![CDATA[<p><strong><span class="full-image-block ssNonEditable"><span><img style="width: 450px;" src="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/storage/BethFeetCrop.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1466898343723" alt="" /></span></span></strong></p>
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<h3>Opening the Secret Book</h3>
<p><strong><br />Hello Fellow Tender Foodies!</strong></p>
<p>As you may have read from <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/3/where-in-the-world-is-elisabeth-the-tender-foodie.html" target="_blank">my friend Sue's earlier post</a></strong>, I have been battling something for a long time. For a long time, it was a mystery. For a year or two at a time, at different times, I was completely disabled, and almost died. Then popped back into life after working with an MD who is also a Chinese Herbalist to whom I will be forever grateful. Even after coming back to life, I would regress from walking on my hands in yoga class and on the beach, to suddenly not being able to walk on my own two feet with confidence or at all. Muscle weakness would take over my body with uncanny speed, and the well defined muscles on my legs would simply disappear. I gained 50 lbs in a couple of months, and people thought I ate too much. Then lost 80lbs and people thought I was sick or anorexic. That is simply a few of the many odd shifts in my physical plane that have happened at different times. I've continually altered my life and career with each relapse, have continually battled to get back to those handstands, because if I could do that, I could sing, write, develop relationships, and be of service to people in some way. Through my work. Through my life. I devoted a lot of time to more deeply and spiritually understand the "why" and "how" and "cure" for this - for many years not knowing exactly what "this" is. Finding equalibrium. Changing my diet. Learning more about food, allergies, and immune supporting diets. I've seen excellent physicians, good physicians and simply terrible ones. I had spent all of my earnings and savings, and my parents helped as best that they could when I couldn't do it anymore on my own.</p>
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<h3>A New and Unexpected Road to Recovery</h3>
<p>I recently had a sudden, and unexpected relapse. Unexpected, because I had been in treatment for over a year, and was doing much better again. There were some major allergic reaction-type bumps along the way, which probably interfered with the healing quite a bit, but will save that story for another time.</p>
<p>I am finally working with a top Lyme Disease specialist right now in Albany, NY. He has discovered several co-infections that are common with Lyme Disease, including two types of pneumonia, and some kind of bug that has decided to work on my heart, along with the other muscles it likes to attack. A severely depressed immune system. Plus more co-infections that I am learning about now. It isn't simply one bug that sits in a tick's stomach, you see. It can be several. I had no idea.</p>
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<h3>It Changed My Life</h3>
<p>This disease can bring a great deal of misperception and judgement  and sometimes, cruelty - from doctors, communities, and even families.  "You look fine, stop pretending," even as the muscles all over one's  body are spasming so painfully, tears would come. Every single person  who has Lyme has had this said to them while inside, they feel like they  will die. So I kept my mystery disease a secret as much as I could,  hiding, only coming out when in remission or when I could control my  symptoms, planning meticulously how to work, get enough sleep, keep  meetings, and be efficient; focusing mostly on work, and letting fun,  friendships, and baseball games of my beloved nieces and nephews go by  the wayside. Did I want to? No. I had to.</p>
<p>I also went from a <strong><a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank">performing opera singer</a></strong> on the stage, to a writer tucked away in my apartment. There is joy in both. I had always intended to do both. So I am very lucky to be able to do one of those careers now.</p>
<p>Then, I was told I had Lyme. It took a few years for me to admit that I had Lyme. I had other things, I don't want another disease. Good grief. This is not sexy. Not sexy at all. Yet, during this little life lesson, I have also come across many, many people doing battle wtih Lyme Disease in their own unique ways. Some suffering for a long time. Others, completely cured. It affects everyone quite differently. When I <strong><a href="http://www.tenderfoodie.com/blog/2016/6/3/where-in-the-world-is-elisabeth-the-tender-foodie.html" target="_blank">came out with the story</a></strong> through my friend and heroine Sue, many people overwhlemed me with the most delicious and healing support, which buoyed me when I really needed it, saved me, and surprised me. I had given up, and didn't realize it. Their support turned a bright light on the belief that, "I can't take one more relapse," and that this time I had actually believed it. I had given up, and they supported me into changing my mind. Sue piled me into my car and drove me to Albany, New York. The land where the magic doctor lives. Like I said, she is my heroine in this story.</p>
<p>There have also been a startling number of people who have said, "I think I have that," or "I know someone like that, or "I never knew it could do that to you!" They thanked me for opening up about it. They actually thanked me for allowing them to support me, which touched me more deeply than I can tell you. They thanked me for sharing information as I learned it. So, I decided to do that here, too.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h3>Celebrities Raise Awareness</h3>
<p>Lyme is hitting the news with a little more honesty, because ticks, one of the main carriers of Lyme, are also breeding like  rabbits, and jumping on and biting more and more people and their pets. The news is also chock full of celebrities reporting their Lyme Disease or who <strong><a href="http://www.mprnews.org/story/2016/06/22/kris-kristofferson-lyme-disease-alzheimers" target="_blank">have been misdiagnosed, like Kris Kristofferson</a></strong>. Doctors treated him for Alzheimers Disease when he actually had Lyme Disease. With Lyme treatment, his memory is back at 80 years old, and so is his life.</p>
<p>Actress<strong><a href="http://www.inquisitr.com/2079245/ashley-olsen-lyme-disease-devastates-mary-kate-olsens-twin-as-symptoms-cause-physical-emotional-agony/" target="_blank"> Ashley Olson</a></strong>, musician, <strong><a href="http://grantland.com/hollywood-prospectus/neneh-cherry-comes-to-new-york-city/" target="_blank">Neneh Cherry</a></strong>, musician <strong><a href="http://www.healthline.com/health/daryl-hall-lyme-disease" target="_blank">Daryl Hall</a></strong>, reality star <strong><a href="http://www.bravotv.com/the-daily-dish/yolanda-foster-how-i-helped-avril-lavigne-cope-with-lyme" target="_blank">Yolanda Foster</a></strong> and Avril Lavine, as well as Richard Gere, and other celebs who have raised the level of awareness to a point of undeniability.</p>
<p>I have come to love the people I have met with Lyme - the ones who can't afford to get help or who give every last cent to try to get better. I see the same yearning in their eyes for life. i see how incredible people are and how interesting they are. These people have gained a spiritual depth, as their daily life slips by. They bring it with them as they recover. We need these people back in this thing called LIFE and to bring their depth of soul with them. It is time for more awareness on what Lyme disease is, how it effects us, and how it truly needs to be treated. So if you would like to start with my story, <a href="https://www.gofundme.com/e8yqqmbu" target="_blank"><strong>read here</strong></a>.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<h3>With a Lot of Help From Friends and Strangers</h3>
<p>Friends - and strangers -&nbsp; are helping me get treated by one of the rare experts that exist in the world - the true experts, who have pushed boundaries in order to help an ignored population. And I continue to need this financial help to be able to stay in treatment until I am back on my feet. Thus, I am doing the only thing I can do to pay it forward, give back, or whatever the buzz words are these days for offering up the humble gifts you have, because others have helped you<strong>.</strong> I hope to interview my doctor, write more about insurance as I learn how to fit into a system that spits you back out, about treatments, new research, and tell the stories of the people who I meet along the way who have Lyme and help people with it. And simply open up my own soul after hiding for so many years. Frankly, this scares the crap outta me.</p>
<p>Because now, this opera singer turned writer, is writing about Lyme as I learn about it and as I get treated for it, and without all of the answers. Now that I can lift my head.</p>
<p>Fasten your seatbelts. I'm certainly fastening mine.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>Sincerely</strong></p>
<p><strong> </strong></p>
<p><strong>&nbsp;Elisabeth, The Tender Foodie</strong></p>
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<p><strong><a href="http://www.nextavenue.org/kris-kristoffersons-dementia-now-believed-caused-lyme-disease/" target="_blank">Read more about Kris Kristofferson's Misdiagnosis. </a></strong></p>
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<p>"He was taking all these medications for things he doesn't have, and  they all have side effects," she says. She is wearing one of her  husband's tour merchandise shirts. After he gave up his Alzheimer's and  depression pills and went through three weeks of Lyme-disease treatment,  Lisa was shocked. "All of a sudden he was back," she says. There are  still bad days, but "some days he's perfectly normal&nbsp;and it's easy to  forget that he is even battling anything."</p>
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